He [HAD] her...

"...he [had] her falling like rain

and at night

and in her dreams

he [had] her calling his name..."

-Miss Joyy

Just a small quote from my favorite poet of all time! I just wanted to share it with everyone because it's so deep and beautiful.

xoxo, Modern Day Juliette

Delete before reading...right???

We've all felt that way right? Having something to say....having the words at the tip of your tongue! And then????.....Nothing. You take it all back. You're scared of the outcome. Delete before reading. It's the worst internal conflict. "I want to tell him, but I don't want to tell him." Yea, we've all been there... Sometimes everything is so...blissful without your truth. Everything is fine. For now. Yes, everything is fine until you go home after a great day and realize you want more. And you get mad at yourself for not ripping off the band aid when you had a whole days chance. You think "I want him to be happy, I want him to be safe." So you continue seeing them everyday, just glad you're spending time with them one more day. Thankful for their face, their voice.... and you're silent. Everything silent except for the ticking time bomb indside you. Nothing matters...just that moment. Not the fact that when you two part your ways, he's goes off oblivious, or the fact that when you get home, you're probably gonna beat yourself up for not telling him how you really feel. Yes, a crush seems more like a curse than an actual good thing. Nothing makes sense and at the same time, everything does. You don't understand yourself...how can you be so freaking silent??? JUST SAY IT!....no. What will happen? Awkwardness is a guarantee, were the answer to be a rejection, as polite as it may be. YOu don't want to ruin it, that friendship you two have. That closeness, that sincerity. So that's it....right? What? Do you wait till it passes? Pray to God you stop feeling that way and suffer all the meanwhile?...It's the worst internal conflict. Delete before reading.

xoxo, Modern Day Juliette

Original Date: Febuary 16, 2008

I love you...and I hate you.
I need you...but I want you gone.
I have you...yet it seems like I've never met you.
I see you...but I'm blind.
I feel you around me...yet, I'm still cold.
You're mine...but I don't know you.
You make me smile during the day... but you make me cry at night.
You make me feel safe... yet, I'm the most terrified I've ever been....
I hate you....so why do I want you the way I do?

Original Date: February 18, 2008

The following is an entry I wrote a while ago about a really smart guy that saw through everything except through my obvious feelings.

This is probably not the place to say it...
You probably don't even check my blogs,
And even if you did,
You probably think I am writing about someone else.
Oh my dear, you are so wrong.
It is you I am writing to.
You.
The same person I allow to look through my soul,
And yet, all you see are two brown eyes.
I am not mad at you.
I just want to know why.
Why am I just a please and a thank you?
How can you be so blind that you don't even see me...
Looking at you lovingly?
Yes.
Deny it.
Deny that you saw it coming.
Deny that you are starting to see the truth behind my almond-shaped brown eyes.
My dear, you are amazing.
I have never met anyone that makes me blush the way you do...
Makes my face light up the way you do when you walk into the room.
I love spending time with you.
Being around you makes me anxious and excited and energetic all at the same time.
Lol.
But maybe nothing will ever happen.
God knows you don't give me the time of day.
So I sit.
Silently.
Slowly fading into the background.
Yes I ramble, and you look at me like I'm crazy.
I ramble about you...
About how what I feel is so sincere and yet so stupid...
To think that if I wait just a little longer, something...
My dear, I am a subtle lady.
I drop hints...subtle hints....
Hints that are maybe too subtle that even someone as smart as you cannot decipher.
So yes. I am finally telling you this.
Maybe not private enough as I would like to be telling you this...
But maybe private enough to make you open your eyes...lol
...your eyes...
This is just me, overflowing with words.
It's okay to be silent now dear.
I've said it.
I have set you free with my secret...
I have set myself free.
Be happy now dear...
I just want you to be happy...
I just want you.... to smile.

Present Day: October 26, 2008- Yes, we write, pour our souls on paper about our latest crush. Then it doesn't work out or whatnot and time continues, we move on and we find ourselves with a pen and paper yet again, oh the inevitable. It's what? Pathetic? No, i don't like to think about it that way. Its the way things go. For writers like me anyway...You feel, you write, you move on...hmmm. We must admit though....each crush is unique. Each makes you realize something new...each is...special.

Confusing Breaks of Silence

M.D.J. : Its just...confusing. Ugh! Ok, thats my problem, i get used to something that when it doesn't go routinely, i get all ugh! One moment its every 5 minutes something all "aw", the next, its just so distant, like a stranger, i prolly dont make sense but translate that however.

K.J.D. : ahh. i understand completely.one moment its all: oh heyy. maybe its something more... blah-blah. sweeeeet.and then the next: junKkk. im so retarded. i thought it was something else. now i feel like a fool. errrr...so then you think to yourself: okey. im not gonna think too much into this anymore.but then when the person comes into contact with you later on it happen all OVER again.ehhh. complications

Have you ever felt this way? Ever talked to someone you think you may be making a connection with, and then out of the blue, it just turns to nothing? No hi...as if they never began talking to you. What do you do in an instance like such? You start pointing fingers (mostly at yourself) thinking that you said or did something wrong..or..are they just giving you space? I guess you just pick yourself up and just move on. Right??? Okay so I'm just confusing you cuz I wouldn't know what do do either...ugh!...hmmmm. Makes you think about it huh???

xoxo, Modern Day Juliette

My Favorite Quotes

"Never frown, even when you're sad, because you never know who may be falling in love with your smile."

"...it's because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you wan the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."- When Harry met Sally

"Never make a man a priority when he makes you an option."

"Happy ever after isn't free, but I'll pay anything to have it."

"Falling in love is fun, stepping in is wise." - Kirstin Tabell

"Love softens hearts, and toughens character."- All me!"

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may mean the world."

" The emotion that breaks your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it..."- Nicholas Sparks

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb."- Edward Cullen

"...I sat like a bird locked in the eyes of a snake."- Bella Swan.

These are just some quotes that I absolutely love (Especially the one from When Harry met Sally, its a great movie, if you've never watched it...watch it!)

xoxo, Modern Day Juliette

The Perfect Man

Every girl dreams of the perfect man. Whether it be a bad boy, a confusing character, or the sweetest creature on earth. Every girl wants to feel that "blood rushing to the face" feeling. We all wonder, "Where is he?", What is he like?" Ladies, now a days, finding good, honest, respectable men is like trying to find a mouse in a haystack, they're always moving and a few steps ahead, and not always maturely. I admit, preferable looks are a big bonus, but they're not everything. At the end of the day, I would chose the nerd that treats me like every girl deserves to be treated, rather than the jock that blows me off to go hang out with his buddies. This does not mean that I wouldn't like to pick and choose the handsome guys that pass by me in the hallways and on the street. But my goals love-lofe wise is to find a man that spoils me romantically. No, not with materialistic things, although that's also a bonus, but with words that make a woman feels appreciated and truly loved. A very important thing in search for Mr. Right, always be yourself. Then, the guy that accepts you for who you really are, with all your wonderful characteristics, as well as yor flaws, is worthy of your love. The truth is....men love to love, it's their dirty little secret. Men love to feel responsible for delicate dainty ladies such as ourselves. As a lady, we are to teach and learn to love truly and to be loved truly. The key point is patience. When the time is right, God will send us our destined-to-be that special someone for us. That is why we also have to wait for him. Trust me, he will be worth the wait

xoxo, Modern Day Juliette