Well..smile handsome, I'm over you. I have discovered something over the last week or so. I discovered that I have achieved true luve. I luve you..enough to let you go for good. Enough that your happiness is the only thing that matters to me, and enough that I mean all of this wholeheartedly. While it has been stated nd restated that you broke my heart..i luve you nonetheless. No matter what happens, I want you to remember that. I luved yu once, luve yu still. Always hav, always will. Hehe. Do not mistake this revelation to mean I still desire yu to be mine. I don't. I guess yu can say I luve yu in the sense that yu are extremely important to me..but I don't want yu. I will always be protective of yu because there was a time where yu stood in my shoes. We were n'sync, I know how yu felt once upon a lonely day. Nd though I might not kno how it feels like to belong to someone nd hav them be yours, I will relish in your happiness for it brings me satisfication. I must stop a moment to say that I honestly never thought I would be in this position, saying what I am, nd yet keeping my cool about all this with a smile at the thought of your bright eyes. ....I want yu to kno something. Everyday, at 11:11 am nd pm...I pray for yu. Nd today?...well I surprised myself for praying for her too. Even though yu might not want to kno this, I will tell yu anyways..I will ALWAYS be here for yu. There is nothing yu can say or do that can drive my compassion nd understanding away from yu. Not those words that hurt me, or that new attitude you've picked up..or the young girl sitting so comfortably next to yu. Before yu were my almost, yu were my best friend...nd though I hav lost the title, I stay tru to my duties as one.. I am disappointed in how everything played out, indeed I am. But I cherish your memory despite of everything. I was right yu kno. I was best friends with some lucky girl's Mr. Right. But that's just it, yur still my friend. I can't forget yu, the thought is ridiculous. Like they say; trying to forget someone you luve is like trying to remember someone you've never met. Since the day I got to kno yu, I knew yu were special. Nd though I've cried my share of tears, nd the shares of others, I still belive that. Because evrything I went through in life nd everything I am going through is to make me strong. I understand that. When I saw yu with her...I realized I was sincerely happy for yu. I put aside the unfairness of your smile in contrast to my hidden frown, nd suddenly I felt... happy for yu...because yu don't hav to feel the shadows of lonliness anymore nd it makes me so glad. Okay okay, enough. Hah. Point is, I luve yu unconditionally nd I will always be here for yu. Whether yu need me tomorrow, a year from now, or five years from now. When we come in contact again, know that you were never absent from my mind. I kno you're thinking to yourself that that will change but that's just it. It won't. I will always want the best for yu. And at the moment, I still don't care about anything but yu.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
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