My Perception of You.

Yu are.. my pain, my inspiration.
Yu are.. my impatience, my frustration
Yu were.. forty minutes in the sun.
Yu are.. a fast food drive thru.
Yu were.. a Halloween night.
Yu are.. the stairs before the parking lot.
Yu were.. the face looking up at me from the drive way at 12:21am.
Yu were.. the 4 digit number on a silver clicker.
Yu were.. the nudge on my bottom lip.
Yu are.. the indecisivness of a possible first kiss.
Yu are.. the jump of my heart.
Yu were.. a feeling of giddiness.
Yu are.. my feeling of defeat.
Yu are... what might've been.

P.S. Key word here is Inspiration. I transform my thoughts nd feelings into words. Basically, I mean no harm or distress to a certain reader. I am extremely thankful for each nd every moment despite how it may be portrayed.

Moonstruck

I'm going insane...this irrational feeling of luve has me without reason, nothing makes sense. The worst thing is that I am aware of the effect yu hav on my sensibility...nd I can't bring myself to care. I am moonstruck. Madly in luve. My whole being clouded by this luve-crazed insanity. My every thought is stolen by yur memory...yu live in my subconscious. Every lonely silence echoes yur name. It haunts me in ways I thought weren't possible. Every empty place is burdened by yur lingering presence. Yes, indeed this is true...I am slowly losing my sanity...with every thought of yu. My memories hav tormented me and I was left undefensive. I let their voices bring me down nd rip me apart. Everything I say leaves me puzzled, I don't understand the words coming out of my mouth. Their incoherency scares me....I am going insane. The only thoughts left with reason are screaming at me, furious at my actions..at my lack of control. They are scrambled nd inaudible compared to the playful tone that once coated yur voice. Am I over the resentment? How I can hate yu, luve yu, have compassion for yu, want to destroy yu, and want to protect yu all at the same time is something that I cannot myself comprehend... Why? I ask. And then I remember why I feel so chaotic..its because I left my heart with yu, asked yu to look after it...nd yu took off running..my heart in yur hands...
xoxo, Modern Day Juliette